honestly, its hard being a decent person in the time we live in. i cant tell you how hard it is to like a girl, and then get thrown away because im not an asshole. because i dont treat her badly. because i respect her. because i wanna see her smile. no, its not good enough. you have to break their heart in some way. you have to make them crave your attention. you have to do all the wrong things in order to get their attention and then its still a shot in the dark.
i personally think im a decent person. i can count how many girls ive dated on one hand and im 18 years old. ive always been faithful and i never did anything to the point where it was irreversible. i bring this up because theres a girl i like. shes my bestfriends ex. ive talked to him about it and he says hes okay with it even though i can tell if something happens he wont be. ive been pushed to the point of a massive mental breakdown because of the fact that im sick and tired of doing everything right and still being wrong. the last girl i dated lost feelings for me because i wasent being enough of an asshole i wasent being the “badass” she wanted. as soon as i figured that out i started thinking, ” what the fuck is wrong with me?” then i really looked inside myself and thought of everything i ever did that was bad to a girl. i thought of 3 things. i lied once, i broke one promise, and i changed into something that im not just to please her. now see, me and the girl i like are best friends. we can talk about absloutely anything and theres no akwardness. i told her how i feel and now we barely talk. i dont understand whats going on. she already knew before i even told her and now that she knows its like theres a wall. as i said im a decent guy with good morals and i honestly just wanna make her happy, but it seems as if thats even too much to ask. this is whats wrong with guys and girls today. guys are assholes and then girls procede to bitch about how they are all assholes to the decent guys and they wont even give the right people a chance. im a decent guy and all im asking for is a chance.
2012
